I'm headed out to the lake in a few hours so it will be a while before I post again. Well I could technically try since we've got a laptop and dial-up out there but in the time it takes to load a page... well it just takes forever and so isn't worth it.
My middle brother flies into the city about 5:30 and we're picking him up at the airport and heading straight out there. It's the first time he's been back to the 'Peg in four years. Craziness! I saw him last year for a few days I took a little vacay to spend some time in Canmore and Banff. I love it there but just my luck it rained the entire four and a half days I was there. I was so disappointed. I knew that there were supposed to be mountains out there but for the life of me do you think the clouds and fog would part so I could see them? Nope!

So it was a couple days back that this happened already I've just been a little busy, not a good start for getting back into the blogging thing I know.
Ok so here's the deal. I was house/puppy sitting for my neighbours for a few days. While I was there friday evening I poured myself a glass of water sat down and had a few sips. No more than 2 or 4 sips later I was overcome with an extreme wave a naseua. Now whether this had anything to do with having something to drink... I have no idea. The last time I'd eaten was about 4 hours earlier and I don't think it could've been a over eating/sticking issue. Where my issue and the panicing started was "Oh my god, what happens if I puke?" I know they say immediately after surgery there's worry about vomiting with band slippage and stuff, I'm almost five months out now though and the band should be all held in place with scar tissue and all by now right? I did have a slight puking episode the day after surgery and it hurt like hell, would it still hurt that much? So I ended up going home and lying down for a bit and it went away. But in the aftermath I was astounded at the level of anxiety this brought me. I was almost in tears on the phone with a girlfriend trying to talk myself down out of the panic. Does/has anyone else experienced this kind of panic related to feeling as though you will be sick while having the band? Will it hurt now that I'm healed or will it still be painful? I'm worried cause lets face it people get the flu or mild food poisoning all the time I'm kind of freaking out cause I don't know what to expect.
On another topic. I'm starting to feel some restriction! YAY! It's been two weeks since I had my fill and assumed that I was just going to have to wait until the next one to start feeling a difference. This weekend out of no where it was like "Oh, hey I only ate about 1.5 cups of food and I'm full." Ideally I would like to be eating around 1 cup per meal which is what I think is recommend so maybe I'll just need a small fill next time around. I'm going to start doing some reading and see what I can find out about other peoples experiences cause I'm surprised that after two weeks I'm just now starting to feel a difference. Strange, or maybe its different for everyone, I don't know.
Well back to doing laundry for me. I hope everyone enjoys what remains of their weekends.

So I thought I should get back on this wagon called blogging.
Life has been well life. If things went smoothly I'd be concerned that something was about to happen to throw a hitch in it.
Band wise things have totally been sucking ass to say the least. I've been recently starting to regret my decision to do this. About 2 weeks after my first fill I started experiencing some extreme back pain. Just to be sure it wasn't band related the good Doc's took out all but 1 mL of my saline. Well turns it wasn't related and it went away just as mysteriously as it started. So I'm now trying to work my way back up to that same level I was at before the un-fill. I was at 4.5 mL, down to 1 mL and now I'm at 4.25 mL. When I was at 4.5 mL I was doing great. Happy with my decision, losing weight, gaining back some confidence. I even hit onderland I was sitting at 195. Now... I'm back upto 205 and not feeling any restriction at 4.25 mL. I'm frustrated, angry, and just freaking pissed off. I have been religously tracking my food and eating high protein meals as advised. I just don't know what else to do. My next fill isn't until August 25 and it just seems so far away. It has now been 4 months and 15 days since my banding and I can honestly say that I have not really lost any significant amount of weight. I'm maintaining my pre-surgery weight but that isn't what I've done this for.
I guess I'm just going to have to start bumping up the exercise more and try to get in for another fill sooner if I can cause I'm totally fed up.
Sorry for those that might actually read this. Not exactly a nice and cheery "I'm Back!" I guess I needed to vent somehow and don't know where else to do it.