I know I haven't been around much lately. I wish I could say it's because I've been so busy living but it's not that. I've more or less just been really really lazy.
My parents put their house up for sale a month ago approximately and moved in with me... It still hasn't sold and I'm going a little stir crazy. It's funny how I've gotten used to living on my own so quickly and how it drives me nuts to have them around all the time! I guess that's also part of the reason I haven't posted as that I feel like I need my space and privacy to be able to post. With my Mom always hanging around and looking over my shoulder I just couldn't write anything. I love her to bits but there are things I don't need or want to share with her. On top of my parents living with me they also brought their dog and the two cats. It was manageable until last week when my brother shipped his dog out here for the season. I went from having my house to myself to it being 3 people, 3 dogs and 2 cats. I felt like putting a sign out to advertise the new petting zoo in the neighbourhood!
Some of you suggested a while back after my mini-meltdown that I get out of my comfort zone. I've been working on it! If you lived in Winnipeg and were browsing the singles websites out there you would find me on three of them now... I've been sending out e-mails and messages galore but nothing has come from any of them yet.
Part of what led to my meltdown looking at things retrospectively now was the never ending flirtation I had/have going on with a certain co-worker known in the lab as "Hot Todd the Maintenance Guy" I guess I was confused as to what was going on there since I really do like him quite a bit and get the school girl like butterflies every time I see and talk to him (or for that matter even think about him). And there has definitely been some obvious flirting going on on both of our parts. I asked a couple girlfriends at work if maybe I was imagining this since I'm not exactly experienced and they set my mind at ease in a sense that I wasn't imagining him flirting back! Then I sent one of them on a mission to find out if he was single or not. Yup definitely single. At which point I just got upset, really upset cause I realized that this flirting game that was going on was as far is it was going to go. He's not really interested or looking for anything and that would be why he wasn't making any sort of a move, that's what I think at least!
Band related. I'm weighing in a 165.5 pounds today. I've had a rough couple weeks food wise. Can't seem to keep much solid foods down and definitely have not been getting enough calories into to lose weight. I have an appointment Tuesday morning and I'm going to ask for an un-fill. I can't tolerate this anymore. Yes I want smaller portions but I also need to be able to eat! I feel like I'm just starving myself right now. I'm exhausted and cranky.
The part that confuses me is that I thought/assumed that as you lost weight you would need more fill. Less fat pushing on the band to create restriction so you would need more saline... no?? Whatever the case may be I need some saline out and to eat some food.
We're going out for lunch tomorrow at work... not sure what I'm going to have since I PB'd pretty bad yesterday and have put myself on liquids. We're going to a dim sum restaurant so maybe I'll get some consomme or something. One of the students families owns the place so I guess I can always order something not on the menu if need be.
Had the day off for Canada Day today. Happy Birthday Canada! Just watched some True Blood and made some coconut macaroons to take to work. I've been depressed and I clean and bake when I'm depressed. Yesterday I vacuumed and washed the windows so I had to move onto baking today. They smelled delish too bad I cant eat em!
Independence Day is coming up for all of my friends south of the border. This also happens to be my youngest nephew's 13th birthday. Yowza those kids are growing fast! They're both officially teenagers now. His brother will be 15 in august. They are both taller than me and it kind of freaks me out. I better get used to it though.